Posted by
Conservabear on Thursday, September 11, 2008 5:00:09 PM
Today is the day we pause our daily activities to mourn and remember those 3000 plus Americans and guests from other nations who lost their lives in the WTC, Shanksville, PA and the Pentagon. These are the loved ones, friends, family neighbors of those who are still in grief, still in mourning, still in love, embracing the memories of their dearly departed ones while struggling to continue their lives. They lost their lives because of the delusional misconceptions, misperceptions, misguided followings and hatred by their attackers, Extreme Fundamentalist Islamic Terrorists. They lost their lives at the hands of a people sworn to remove anyone and everyone, who did not bow to their teachings of hatred, by a god, we do not know, who is not our God, who is not a God of peace, divine love and justice.
We must remember our fallen brothers and sisters, lost in battle, who willingly sacrificed their lives to prevent this tragedy from every happening again. These men and women are the brave members of our military, whom, to and beyond this day will still be fighting for our freedom and those the oppressed from other lands. On this day, We must remember our response both individually and as a nation! We must pray! We must remember! We shall not forget!
Before I continue, let me preface my next series of statements with a disclaimer: I am beseeching my readers to attempt to stand in my shoes to try to understand what I am about to say, that I am Not directing my harsh words nor the sad condition of my heart to the following: all those good folks, Not of my faith; especially my moderate Muslim friends, those of my faith; those who seek peace, who display goodness, kindness and real love towards their fellow man; those trying to survive the day to day battles of living; those with integrity, honor, and a great work ethic; those of us still changing, still developing and finally those of us who have stepped away from sin and self destruction and are walking towards the light of God.
Let me remind my readership especially those of us who pounce on every opportunity for a gotcha moment. I am Not the villain in this story, I am Not planning to use the defenseless as carriers of destruction. I am discussing the Extreme Radical-Fundamentalist-Actively-Murdering-Islamic-Terrorists. Remember folks, these evil idealists decided to remove the west from their moorings. It was not just the west they wanted to eliminate but their most hated of enemies besides Israel, The United States of America, and the citizens of this great nation, blessed by God. To this very day, the misguided are still plotting, planning and proceeding with their evil plan of destruction and annihilation.
I am writing this day, to confess my extreme anger towards these ministers of death and my desire to overcome this great anger and disgust, that to this very day, I still feel towards these faceless, misguided, murderers of our people. This is an anger that cannot be abated, cannot be quenched and still burns within my heart every time I see a picture or a video of these evil terrorists and their hate-driven leaders.
God help me. God forgive me for I cannot deal with this on my own, I need your help, your grace, your peace, and your divine love Father God, through your Son Jesus The Christ. I need the desire to forgive and forget and I cannot for how does one forgive evil. Perhaps I am not ready to forgive or forget. Perhaps now is not the time to forgive and forget. Here is what I do know, the very hardness of my heart has taken hold of my very psyche and will not release it's stony grasp until the very cells of my being have fully mourned our people. Until I face the cold reality, that this attack upon our Nation, this tragedy was beyond my control, there is nothing I can do; not until every one of these oppressors of freedom and life is physically removed from the face of the earth. I can only pray without ceasing to overcome this desire for vengeance and to move to a place of forgiveness. I pray it is soon. Yes, my fellow believers in freedom, justice and moral American values, I may eventually forgive, but I will certainly never forget.